Back to University Life

After 8 hours from now,
I wil be sitting on the bus tat wil bring me back to USM.
yes, the holiday is over.
what a bad news.

I don't think I can blogging so often after return to USM,
this is because
MY STUPID ROOM IN HOSTEL HAS NO INTERNET SERVICE.
(p.s. sorry, it has internet port, but it has rosak long time ago.)

I heard that it has already down for some years...
n I was told that it won't have any hope for it to be repaired.
how sad. this is what we called APEX university... huh !

so, [ have internet port ] = [ no internet service ] =.=|||

but stil, if I'm hardworking enough,
maybe I wil try to post it using the PC in library.
If...If only I have the time and mood for it... haha :P

that's it for today,
time to continue my packing. many stuff I've to bring. HELP~

N lastly, before I forget...
Kei n piang, TAKE CARE lo... all the best ^^

PMR Result is out

PMR result is released on Christmas Eve 2009.
yeah, u must be wondered,
"PMR? that was already a long long history for you, why you're still mention it now?"

yeah, not my result, is my brother's PMR result.
Guess what?
His result is terrible. Really terrible.
(sorry if I hurt someone's feeling out there, but for me ---> it is BAD)

He is not-so-clever, that's the truth that my family know.
But hey bro,
"If u know you're not clever, please put in more effort in your studies! U can overcome that problem by your hardworking. "

He always complaint that my parents n I tend to compare his results with mine.
Ok, my results are better than his,
but Xuan Wei, listen here:
"Everytime I prepared seriously for my exams (although they were always last-minute-study). But I'm not like you, stil reading comics in the night before PMR ! "

But what makes me more angry( just a little bit angry) is,
he din't get a big scold from my parents for his-BAD-PMR-result.
My parents juz kinda "talk" n nagging him a bit only.

Hey! this is the difference between me n my brother.
I won't forgot how PMR results get scolded by my mom.

"what?!! U got B for your BM? how could this happen?
your same-year-cousin got 8A's for her PMR, so do your neighbour(same year also), but how could you get a B for your BM ?
See la, that's because of your comics... read more, n get this kind of result !!!"

yeah, this is wat I got from my mom for getting one B in PMR.
I stil remember that i fought back my mom, saying that I really really hate study !!! It's her that always forced me on my studies.
That day I was so unhappy, after getting result I got scold, then finally cant stand my mom's scolding n fought back the words, then went to my room for the rest of the night. N cry a little bit...

N my brother this year? He get only one A in his whole PMR result slip.
but how my mom scold him?
Just some more serious scolding in the afternoon for a while.
Then at night, my parents only "talk" him a while...

haiz... that's the differences. the UNFAIR differences.
the only reason that I can think of to compensate myself is:
My parents hope for more on me. They put higher expectation and hope on me, the eldest child in the family.
By thinking this way, I think I wil feel better.

I won't hate or blame my parents.
I can understand.
The only thing I can blamed is, why I can't do it better?
coming is my second semester in tertiary studies.
hoping for all the best.
Don't make it like the first semester, getting that poor result...
Fighting for second semester !!!

Fear

2 months of holiday, it is almost over by now.
kinda sad.
I really enjoy holidays.
These are the time that u can really lay back n relax.
No need to rush. No need to study till late night.
can sleep without worrying can't finish study for the exam.

I stil remember how I prepare for my first semester's test,
when exam is nearing,
I can't really have enough time to prepare for my exam.
ended up struggling every night before the exams...
those days r really awful.

one word to describe: TERRIBLE.
or may be HORRIBLE too.

mostly bcoz of this, when I think of goin bac to my university,
I m kinda scare. Scare for the tests, scare for the exams.
but somehow, the reality is cruel.
I stil have to return to my so-called-"DEAR"-university next week.
this is my responsibility as a student, as a daughter, and as myself.

well, I really should start study diligently and consistently.
I shall not repeat what I have done in Sem One.
stil goin out with frens, but not that often.

This is the PROMISE, between you and me

回国

在标题的空栏里打下了“回国” 两字。
回想起在澳洲的日子，
对，我回国了。

我对澳洲留下美好的印象，

离开那里，心中难免会有不舍。

别人常说：“外国的月亮比较园。”
这点我不清楚。
但是我可以很清楚地告诉你，：“澳洲的天空比较美。”
很美，真的很美。
再加上我平日就有喜欢仰望天空的习惯，
澳洲的蓝天，我很喜欢。

在澳洲平平静静地，每天都过得很自在，
好像突然间把所有的是非、烦恼都抛到九霄云外，
在充满咖啡香的 Coffee Shop 里，享受着我最爱的咖啡，
突然发现我还蛮喜欢这种悠哉悠闲的生活。

心境平和，人自然就会比较健康。
少了世间的纠纷，人就能活得自在。
我很喜欢这种远离是非，远离烦恼的生活。
也许我还不太懂得人与人之间的相处吧。

交际，的确是我最弱的一环，
也是我最想改善的弱点。
只希望随着年龄的增长，人和心智渐渐成熟，
待人处世方面也得以改善，交际手腕也许会逐渐变好吧。