Back to University Life

After 8 hours from now,
I wil be sitting on the bus tat wil bring me back to USM.
yes, the holiday is over.
what a bad news.

I don't think I can blogging so often after return to USM,
this is because
MY STUPID ROOM IN HOSTEL HAS NO INTERNET SERVICE.
(p.s. sorry, it has internet port, but it has rosak long time ago.)

I heard that it has already down for some years...
n I was told that it won't have any hope for it to be repaired.
how sad. this is what we called APEX university... huh !

so, [ have internet port ] = [ no internet service ] =.=|||

but stil, if I'm hardworking enough,
maybe I wil try to post it using the PC in library.
If...If only I have the time and mood for it... haha :P

that's it for today,
time to continue my packing. many stuff I've to bring. HELP~

N lastly, before I forget...
Kei n piang, TAKE CARE lo... all the best ^^

PMR Result is out

PMR result is released on Christmas Eve 2009.
yeah, u must be wondered,
"PMR? that was already a long long history for you, why you're still mention it now?"

yeah, not my result, is my brother's PMR result.
Guess what?
His result is terrible. Really terrible.
(sorry if I hurt someone's feeling out there, but for me ---> it is BAD)

He is not-so-clever, that's the truth that my family know.
But hey bro,
"If u know you're not clever, please put in more effort in your studies! U can overcome that problem by your hardworking. "

He always complaint that my parents n I tend to compare his results with mine.
Ok, my results are better than his,
but Xuan Wei, listen here:
"Everytime I prepared seriously for my exams (although they were always last-minute-study). But I'm not like you, stil reading comics in the night before PMR ! "

But what makes me more angry( just a little bit angry) is,
he din't get a big scold from my parents for his-BAD-PMR-result.
My parents juz kinda "talk" n nagging him a bit only.

Hey! this is the difference between me n my brother.
I won't forgot how PMR results get scolded by my mom.

"what?!! U got B for your BM? how could this happen?
your same-year-cousin got 8A's for her PMR, so do your neighbour(same year also), but how could you get a B for your BM ?
See la, that's because of your comics... read more, n get this kind of result !!!"

yeah, this is wat I got from my mom for getting one B in PMR.
I stil remember that i fought back my mom, saying that I really really hate study !!! It's her that always forced me on my studies.
That day I was so unhappy, after getting result I got scold, then finally cant stand my mom's scolding n fought back the words, then went to my room for the rest of the night. N cry a little bit...

N my brother this year? He get only one A in his whole PMR result slip.
but how my mom scold him?
Just some more serious scolding in the afternoon for a while.
Then at night, my parents only "talk" him a while...

haiz... that's the differences. the UNFAIR differences.
the only reason that I can think of to compensate myself is:
My parents hope for more on me. They put higher expectation and hope on me, the eldest child in the family.
By thinking this way, I think I wil feel better.

I won't hate or blame my parents.
I can understand.
The only thing I can blamed is, why I can't do it better?
coming is my second semester in tertiary studies.
hoping for all the best.
Don't make it like the first semester, getting that poor result...
Fighting for second semester !!!

Fear

2 months of holiday, it is almost over by now.
kinda sad.
I really enjoy holidays.
These are the time that u can really lay back n relax.
No need to rush. No need to study till late night.
can sleep without worrying can't finish study for the exam.

I stil remember how I prepare for my first semester's test,
when exam is nearing,
I can't really have enough time to prepare for my exam.
ended up struggling every night before the exams...
those days r really awful.

one word to describe: TERRIBLE.
or may be HORRIBLE too.

mostly bcoz of this, when I think of goin bac to my university,
I m kinda scare. Scare for the tests, scare for the exams.
but somehow, the reality is cruel.
I stil have to return to my so-called-"DEAR"-university next week.
this is my responsibility as a student, as a daughter, and as myself.

well, I really should start study diligently and consistently.
I shall not repeat what I have done in Sem One.
stil goin out with frens, but not that often.

This is the PROMISE, between you and me

回国

在标题的空栏里打下了“回国” 两字。
回想起在澳洲的日子，
对，我回国了。

我对澳洲留下美好的印象，

离开那里，心中难免会有不舍。

别人常说：“外国的月亮比较园。”
这点我不清楚。
但是我可以很清楚地告诉你，：“澳洲的天空比较美。”
很美，真的很美。
再加上我平日就有喜欢仰望天空的习惯，
澳洲的蓝天，我很喜欢。

在澳洲平平静静地，每天都过得很自在，
好像突然间把所有的是非、烦恼都抛到九霄云外，
在充满咖啡香的 Coffee Shop 里，享受着我最爱的咖啡，
突然发现我还蛮喜欢这种悠哉悠闲的生活。

心境平和，人自然就会比较健康。
少了世间的纠纷，人就能活得自在。
我很喜欢这种远离是非，远离烦恼的生活。
也许我还不太懂得人与人之间的相处吧。

交际，的确是我最弱的一环，
也是我最想改善的弱点。
只希望随着年龄的增长，人和心智渐渐成熟，
待人处世方面也得以改善，交际手腕也许会逐渐变好吧。

An Artistic Day

today I visited art gallery in Brisbane city.

bcoz 2day is Monday, so not many ppl.

The surrounding is quiet and comfortable, perfect for an art gallery.

the paintings there are sorted according to type,

so it is easy to browse through all of those paintings.

I remember I saw one Picasso's great work,

cant really remember the name of the art,

but it is really..... hard to understand for me.

I m not gud at art, and interpreting art pieces... haha :P

but I saw one or two paintings... speechless ==

It is a plain black sheet of painting, about 3 metres high.

only have some thin red lines horizontally across d black sheet.

THAT'S ALL.

I was like : "huh? tat's it? " (=.=) ???

I know it's not gud to criticize ppl's great work, but i really cant understand.

We also went to the Brisbane State Library bookshop...

I read one book about the famous paintings in the world...

really interesting, gained a lot of knowledge of it ^

so today is really an Artistic Day for me...

hehe ^^ what a nice day

Counting down for return to Malaysia...

5 more days to go, i wil be goin bac Malaysia...

yup, u r right, i m goin bac on 4th December.

I have been here for almost 3 weeks.

This 3 weeks is surely the best 3 weeks of holiday I have ever had in my whole life.

The life in Aussie is great, really great.

It makes me think of living here in the future.

"maybe i can study here, or maybe working here..."

this kind of thought always pop-up in my mind recently.

my mom n my aunt wil really happy if i can come here for work or study.

especially my mom... haha ^^

It is not impossible. It is POSSIBLE.

It only depends on me, whether I m willing to pay out for tat.

I shall study hard for tat.

ya... may be I really should.

may be that time, who wanna join me? :P

Food Poisoning (T-T)

The monday 2 days back was my fren Ernest's birthday...

congrat for him.

it surely is a nice n wonderful day for him, but definitely not for me.

I have a serious food poisoning tat day.

phew... i think it was bcoz of the tiramisu cake tat i have in a coffee shop the day before.

it make 3 of us ( my aunt, my cousin n me ) have an awful day...

I ate the cake d most, so mine is d most terrible.

on that day, i woke up feeling not well. Yet i stil nid to go for the daytrip tat my aunt has booked for us. I vomited so many times tat day, even before i had my breakfast...

tat day was surely not my day. I vomited out anything tat i eat, even a cup of warm drinking water oso cant stay in my stomach, it is all vomited out soon after i drink it.

so basically tat day, i don dare to take in anything, i cant even drink any water, coz i wil vomit all of them out soon after i take it.

this made me feeling dizzy n tired the whole day. I joined a local daytrip, so v have to walk here n there. it is so tiring. even the guide let us have 2 hours to freely walk around the street, i ended up sleeping on the table of restaurant for the whole 2 hours...

soon after i reach my aunt's hse, i continue my dizzy sleep. I woke up once at night, thinking of at least wanna eat something for the whole day. My aunt cooked a very delicious keow teow sup, it really taste nice, plus tat i was really hungry. But same things happen again. It is all vomit out.

Haiz... poor me. I ady feeling hungry, but yet i stil cant eat anything i want. I oso had headache tat night. after taking panadol, i continue my sleep again...

tat was a terrible night. Luckily i was feeling better on the next day. at least i ady can eat my breakfast. but now, I stil don dare to eat too much. I m stil scare of being full. But basically, now ady feeling ok.

argghh... so good for being healthy again...

== Health is important !!! ==

Warner Brothers Movie World

Warner Brothers Movie World is surely a nice place to visit ^^

it is located at Gold Coast, Australia, near to my aunt's hse...

inside there is really pretty, lots of beautiful building of the cartoon tat v used to watch during our childhood, eg. Buns Bunny, Scooby-Doo, Batman, Shrek...

it is like falling into a dream world... quite enjoyed inside there.

colourful flower inside Movie World... so pretty ^^

but I did something wrong at the beginning of the day.

I let my temper over control my emotion, again...

bcoz when v first arrived at there, the weather is really hot.

so my another aunt n my mom walked really fast in front me, n i m busying taking photos around the place. They walked so fast, as if there were nothing around them.

I was a bit angry, started to put on my bad-mood-and-angry-face.

I think my mom realized it, coz tat is wat I wil usually do when i am angry.

Luckily later on I realized tat i m showing out my bad temper again,

quickly i calmed myself down, n my mood turned better.

Looks like I stil nid to put in some effort in controlling my temper...

cant really let my bad temper overtake my mind again...

I should be cool and calm...

anyway, Movie World is surely a nice place for teenager... inside there got some nice shows and exciting roller coaster rides. The souvenir inside is also very cute n pretty.

I did grab some for myself, but it ended up my aunt paying them for me...

Thx Aunt Karen again... ^^

Bunny in Gold Award... "WHAT'S UP, DUCK ! "

I particularly luv this badge ^^

but later on, my aunt oso brought me to the Centre Business Area of Gold Coast.

And this time I did buy myself some cute souvenir.

But this time I didn't let my aunt pay for me.

I pay them myself ^^ cant always have her to pay, it shouldn't be lk this.

rewards for me ^^

tomoro wil be staying in the hse for the whole day i think.

Outside there is really really hot. Hot like hell. It's SUMMER time...

I m oso kinda glad tat i can stay in the hse whole day for air-cond ^^

but maybe thinking whether wanna walk to the nearby stores to discover some new stuff.

it depends on tomoro's mood again... n weather too.

The coming Thursday v r goin for a day trip.

maybe later wana check up where v r goin this thurs...

but for sure it wil be an enjoyable trip too ^^

Holiday-ing in Aussie

For the very first Semester break in the stressful USM, I have visited my aunt's hse in Gold Coast, Australia. The flight takes about 8 hours...

= my boarding pass =

ya... after tiring 8 hours flight, finally i have reach Gold Coast, Australia...

Bcoz of my aunt's laptop didn't come with chinese word, so I'm using my broken english to continue blogging for the whole holiday in Aussie... hope u guys trying ur best to understand my poor broken english with lots of grammar mistake... ( glad tat my english tutor, Mr. Ngooi won read this, or else he wil kill me for d english grammar n short form tat i use... :P )

It's summer now in Aussie. On the first day I arrived here, the weather is stil ok. Although the sunshine is pretty hot, but the wind blowing is cool.

But after a few days, the temperature rises n it bcom hotter n hotter...

phew... I hate hot weather!!!

It has been almost one week since I arrived in Australia here. My aunt treated us very well... perhaps super well... She buy us so many things, treat us so many nice food, bring us to many places...

Thx u very much, Aunt Karen ^^

So far I have been to many places in Brisbane n Sunshine Coast, lk city of Brisbane, Noosa Marina, the world's largest Ginger Factory, Aussie World, mountain top in Sunshine Coast, Big Pineapple...

= City view of Brisbane =

= The World's Largest Ginger Factory =

= Mountain top view =

it is pretty fun, n I have upload some of the photos in facebook.

Do check it out when u r free... hehe ^^

a lot of nice photo of scenery tat i have taken so far.

tomoro v r goin to Movie World in Gold Coast. It's a famous place.

Really can't wait for it... :P
Hopefully tomoro wil also be a nice n enjoyable day for me !!! (^^)/

Happy Holiday ^^

我亲爱的假期终于来临了。哇哈哈
想它想到快疯了……
之前考试不太如意，好多都不太会做。
不过过去了就让它过去，暂时不要想它，成绩放榜时才来担心。

想到假期就很开心，考完试当晚就回家了。嘻嘻
一个人坐晚上12am 的巴士回家，没人陪。
因为 1st year Chemical 只有我一个是来自雪兰莪，唉……

不过感动的是，我的朋友们=Coursemates 在吃完晚餐后，
就陪我和我的室友一起等巴士，
大伙儿都陪我等到12点多咧（可恶的巴士来迟！）
好感动 ^^
谢谢你们！Thx thx ^^


最后要祝大家有个愉快的假期咯。
还没考完试的朋友们要继续努力，加油加油！
See u all next sem la... ^^

Mechanic over 了 !

终于熬过了目前为止我人生中最艰难的一晚,
考完了我最害怕的 mechanic paper，
考得并不好，不会回答，根本就是在乱写一通。
没办法，当时我只能这样，
总好过交白卷吧？

考试前那晚超级 emo, 感到十分压力，几乎快崩溃了。
仿佛掉入绝望的深渊，久久不能脱离。
还好家人和朋友都在安慰我，才让心情好了些，没那么沉重。
谢谢你们，有你们的安慰我真的很感动。

不过现在考完了 Mechanic, 只剩下 Organic Chemistry 而已 ！
Mechanic 已成过去，我也不会再为它感到 emo，因为已经无补于事。
就让它过去吧！go go... shoo shoo !!!
haha ^^

接下来就只剩下星期一的 Organic Chemistry paper，
考完试当晚我就会回家去了！
美好的假期在等着我，要去旅行咯！

假期快快来~

考试 ing

Four Papers in the FINAL,
2 settle, 2 more to go...

之前考的两张 paper 真的是不知所谓。
我真的考到不知所谓。

不知所谓 = 无言 = 不会做

时间不够，拼了命地完成 syllabus，又搞到不够睡……
唉……
这样辛苦，结果考试还是考到一头雾水，乱七八糟。

明天考的是最难的那一科—— mechanic,
我只希望能够及格，不必 retake 就好了。
以我现在的状况，我根本不敢要求更多，因为我真的不会这科。

拜托拜托了。

堕落 ing

考试快到了，真的快到了。
之前特地从大学老远跑回家，还打算在家可以和书本拼了。
谁知回到家后，不是吃就是睡，
还在家里悠哉悠闲地过了好多天，真堕落。

说到考试，
这次考试真是不知所谓。

Bahan 需要背，偏偏我就是最不会背（记性差）。
Maths 大致上看过了，还没做练习，只希望考试题目不要太难。
Organic Chemistry 在2nd week考，留在周末两天一次过拼了。

我的天敌：ENGINEERING MECHANIC ！！！
人家说闻虎色变，我是闻MECHANIC色变
无论我怎样试着去明白，我还是无法明白它在写些什么。
读不明白就不会回答。
即使明白了，也未必会回答。你看死不死？
而且我在想：无论如何挣扎，结果还会是一样，不会做。
算了，我已算是对这科不抱任何希望了，
没有fail，我已很开心，因为我真的不会。


上天保佑保佑，希望所有paper不要太难，
求求你可怜可怜我们吧。



拜托拜托……

新的开始

之前就有在 MSN blogging 过，
在这里算是个新的开始。
之前的blog虽然没什么人会去看，
但写部落格对我而言是一种抒发自己内心的一种方法。
可能您会觉得我在说废话，或是在抱怨什么。
没办法，这就是我。
希望自己能努力经营这个属于我的小小天空。





未来的日子里，请多多指教了。